We are thrilled to present the first of a three-part series from our REAL Women Rock CEO and Founder, Dr. Trenace Nikki Richardson. Trenace has declared 2019 a year of new beginnings and unstoppable abundance for herself personally, for REAL Women Rock, and for everyone connected to her. In this first installation, she gives us a very personal and intimate peek into her own rebirth in the hopes that it moves us to reflect on our own journey from death to life to fully living.
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It has taken me a lifetime to get here. To get to this Golgotha.
A lifetime of over-achieving and people-pleasing.
A lifetime of living two lives to appease others and to satiate my shadow self.
A lifetime of dimming my light and minimizing my soul.
Yes, I have accomplished a lifetime of to dos that make others proud or envious.
But my list of undones and what ifs haunt me just as the Past, the Present, & the Future did Ebenezer.
With a lifetime of opportunities gone, what’s left? Nothing.
There is nothing left in this life to live for. So I die.I die to everything about this lifetime of death.
I die to limitations that make me short and small.
I die to doubts who bully me on the playground of my soul and
steal my milk of dreams and hope.
I die to fears that contaminate my voice and stagnate my living water.
I die to scarcity, lack, and debt; and poverty of mind, spirit, and pocket.
I die to every must, got to, and should.
The me who even acknowledges all of this is dead.
I died of a heart attack.
My life organ was too heavy laden with worry to beat with a surety.
I was poisoned.
The restrictions of my forefathers and mothers became toxic to my soul.
I died of asphyxiation, not arson.
For my fire was not allowed to burn; it was snuffed out by constricting, conflicting, contradictory standards that even they couldn’t meet.
This me is dead. There is nothing left in this lifetime to live for.
I graciously cross my legs to await the agony.
I politely lower my head to receive my death crown
Yet, as I lay here in this dark, dank, empty place. As I succumb to my tomb.
All of me now is gone… is cold… is lifeless… is no more.
Yet and still…
This is not the end of me.