It’s about 37 days until my 50th birthday, and as each day ticks away and life happens, I wonder what May 11th will bring. See this is not what I expected 50 to look like. I’m supposed to be married with some kids around getting ready for college. But instead, I’m single, never married, and never birthed a child of my own. No, life doesn’t look like I imagined. It is approximately 37 days away from my 50th birthday, and my life doesn’t look like I thought it would. Not at all.
Yeah, I’m single, but I have so much love surrounding me.
Yeah, I’ve lost my parents and even some friends, but God has ensured I have Godparents and other friends to replace those I’ve lost.
Still, it’s about 37 days until my 50th birthday and my life is not what I planned.
I’m not working at just any old job. God has given me responsibility for several people and countless projects. I’m amazed that I’ve been entrusted with this type of leadership. This is far beyond what I imagined for my life.
Yep, it’s about 37 days until my 50th birthday, and my life is not what I expected it to be. I dreamt my life would be different and what I’m living now looks nothing like what I’ve dreamed. Yeah, there are some things missing, but there are others that are beyond my wildest dreams. See, I had my own life plans but God’s plan for me is that I have a future and a hope. He knew what was best for me, and I’m still amazed that on this 37th day before my 50th birthday, I get to experience this awesome life I’m living.
Yeah, my life doesn’t look like I dreamed…
It is so much more!
And I can’t wait to be 50 and see what God has in store for the next 50 years of my life. Even though my life doesn’t look the way I dreamed, I know it is the life I’m supposed to live. To quote Paul from the Bible, “Eyes have not seen, nor ears heard, nor have entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him.”
On this 37th day before I turn the big 50, I came to realize that
I am okay with the fact that my life doesn’t look like I dreamed.
Actually, it’s better.